Even To This

What my thoughts have troubled about
all through the night after night!

It's so very scary


I feel

would rather

what's the worst that could happen?
because it just hurts too much
or having had enough of my own self-hatred
against myself, lonely is

nowhere else to go ––
time to stop feeling sorry
for myself,

time to open my heart
even to this
and call to God.


-- John Fox